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| It's only words, and words are all I have |
[19 Apr 2012|12:03pm] |
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No one hears me when I speak. No ones sees me when I cry. Always living in others' shadows, why oh why. My words don't mean a thing; they're weightless. My tears don't leave a trace; they're invisible. My mouth is mute, my ears are deaf, and now, my eyes have gone blind. How much more, are you going to take away that measly part left of me?
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As if anyone in the world cares.
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[30 Mar 2012|04:20pm] |
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[22 Mar 2012|12:08am] |
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Alrighty so I'm back to update this space! Doubt anyone reads it but meh, i want my memories :)
So.. Exams were over almost a month ago. After this break ends, i'll be embarking on my Year Two journey. Ain't sure how it's gonna go but i shall keep a positive mindset about it. After all, i'm just waiting for internship and graduation. Got into Microbiology & Immunology for my specialisation, i hope all goes well for me! Immuno was a major headache for sem 2..
Oh well, I'll embrace the challenge with.. Hmm.. What do you think I should embrace it with? :/
Okay, more Kaki Fuyong from South Canteen! *Awkward silence*
Wouldn't say I'm excited for the next sem to start cause future tutorials and lectures would be with students from other class :(
From now on, I'm no longer a part of MB1101, but a part of MB1103. How weird!! I just got used to remember that my mentor group is MB1101. How will the people be? All those questions floating in my mind.. Alright, I think i will leave those thoughts when the sem starts. Now.. I'm going to announce something major! Hehe okay not exactly major, but it's like helluva hoo-hah for me.
You ready?
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You sure??? Hehe okay no more teasing, it's kinda lame actually. Why am i even doing this...
I FREAKING GOT MY DRIVING LICENSE ON MY 1ST ATTEMPT!!!!!
YEEEEEEEE-HAAAAAAAAAH!
Amazing right? Are you amazed????? :D
Honestly, I didn't think I would be able to get it on my 1st attempt, considering the amount of mistakes I made during the TP test...
I got it on boader-line pass :D Oh heck it, it's still a PASS right?!
Got to drive the silver beauty for one last time before hand-over, got to say it's really better than the car that I used for learning.
Like duh. Oh well.. Anyway that's about it. Break has been about eating and sleeping.
I NEED A MORE INTERESTING LIFE.
Signing off,
Denise ♥
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| Last Paper - POI! |
[23 Feb 2012|08:46pm] |
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Another 5 more days.. To be the last category! Some cute stuff I saw on the net to share :) at least it keeps me laughing during exam period. 
Husky: Can I come in? Can I? Can I?
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| End Of 2nd Semester |
[10 Feb 2012|11:39am] |
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Thanks for all the joy and laughter, R309 <3 Definitely gonna miss all of you when we specialise.. Will be sitting for my first paper in 10 days, so not prepared! :( Till next time!
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[06 Jan 2012|12:14am] |
HAPPY 2TH BIRTHDAY, HAGEN ♥  During his 1st birthday on 6th Jan 2011 :) Though we're no longer living together.. I still miss you every single day. Somehow every corner of the house, and every item in the house, I just can seem to find a relation to you. Still missing you, still loving you.. Just wondering when is the next time I can see you again :( Your current owner seems so busy.. Each time I contact him, he always replies with a "I'm going fishing today/Have family activities" Oh well.. I think I know, but it's just so hard to let go. It's been more than a year, I know you've been doing quite well there. What can I do when my heart just can't stop missing you? Not being able to seek solace anywhere else too.. Just pray that you'll live healthy and strong, till a ripe, old age (though it's still far away) AND PLEASE DON'T BULLY THE POOR WHITE SHEPHERD ANYMORE, HAHA. Lastly.. I ♥ YOU VERY VERY MUCH!  You'll remember me, right? |
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| Post Common Test Activities |
[01 Jan 2012|11:52pm] |
First and foremost, Happy New Year to all out there :) It's already 2012, oh how time has passed.. I wouldn't say it's fast though. Anyway, thanks for passing by! (if anyone is, haha) Back to update! I guess i'm really late in updating what has been going on in my life since it's already 2012 ;) Here to update on events that happened after CT. Partly here to upload photos so Kwek can steal it ;) Anyway, I celebrated the end of CT on a high note. I went to Universal Studios Singapore for the first time in my life! Been so long since I last visited a theme park. I remember my last visit was to Disneyland (Tokyo) :) So glad i actually got Universal Express, got to take all of the rides without queuing up, even got to take a ride twice. How sweet was that! I think the rides were generally fun, with Battlestar Galactica Human being the most thrilling, followed by Battlestar Galactica Cylon and Revenge of The Mummy. Not to mention the Transformers' ride. It was the coolest ride ever! Other than the 4D Shrek movie ;) Donkey was so gross to sneeze in our faces! Eeew. Here are a few pictures to summarise my day at the Universal Studios Singapore (15th Dec):  Must-take tourist photo!  Then we met Kungfu Panda.  On the carousel  4D Shrek Movie! It was awesome :)  Transformers Ride! Words can't describe how cool it is. A must-ride!  With Charlie Chaplin (He's cute)  Hehe just trying to take a picture with nice background  While queuing :)  With Marilyn Monroe, whoooooot!  My fav picture of that day <3  Poor Kwek, her forehead is covered!  Kwek's fave :)  Last picture in USS <3 Puss In Boots 18th December 2011: Cousin's Wedding   Cousins <3 Miss them 19th December 2011: Meeting Up With The Girls!  <3 you all  Let's meet again soon! :) Then it was Christmas Eve, 24th December 2011: Shopping with CK  Xmas tree! Lovely.  Spot us! ;)  Merry Xmas everyone! Though it's late :) 29th December 2011: Secret Santa Day (Delayed)  Ninja!   No need for words <3 <3 <3   Venti fans hahaha Now.. Coming to the most interesting part of the entry....
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COUNTDOWN TO 2012! Gorgeous, isn't it? This is Singapore!     Ignore my face, was trying to imitate those guys who take self-shots and don't smile haha!     That summarises my countdown for 2012! Shall update soon <3 |
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| Visited My Son! |
[27 Nov 2011|01:11am] |
Went for dinner with my parents, thinking it would be another boring dinner. It turned out to be one of the best dinner ever. Other than the shopping, there was something I would never expect of doing.. That was to visit Hagen! Dad said since we were in the area, why not? And since I have been talking about him EVERYDAY (Yes, when i say everyday, it means EVERY SINGLE DAY) I just missed him soooooooo much. I don't know if you guys know this, but I think I treat him as my son. I don't have a real son (duh), and though he is just a Golden Retriever in many people's eyes, he's not just a Golden Retriever or a dog to me. He is my everything! I'll cut the chase and keep the story short. For those who read my previous entries on Hagen, yes, I live for him. I wake up to see him, feed him and walk him. Though i must admit i was extremely complacent when i still had him with me, I actually didn't appreciate the time spent with him, be it feeding time, walking time, bathing time, or even ranting time. Okay wait, i do appreciate ranting time a lot, because he is the only one who will listen (or forced to listen, haha) to me whenever I have something troubling me, or even when I feel sad. I confide to him everything. I think it's just magical that he actually listens to what I told him.
Just now, when we drove over, I saw him sleeping at the porch, together with his White Shepherd companion, from the car. When we got out of the car, my mum merely called, "Hagen!" Immediately, the two of them rose together and ran towards the gates, barking. Their barks, which seemed more of a "OMG WHO IS THAT! IS THAT MUMMY?! OMG OMG IT'S MUMMY!!!", rather than, "GRRR! WHO THE HELL ARE YOU TO STAND AT THE GATE AT THIS HOUR!!!" The both of them were wagging their tails so hard, I swear their lower body were swinging from left to right and I could see their cervical, thoracic and lumbar vertebrae were wriggling in momentum. I finally understood why affectionate dogs love to jump up and lean on us. It's because they want to see our faces, that's why they do that. I never knew that, until I watched The Dog Whisperer. Thank you, Caesar Millan! You've made me understand a little on dog psychology and the ways to handle a dog. The only regret was that I've never stumbled across The Dog Whisperer earlier, when I still had Hagen. When I bent down and squatted at the gate, giving Hagen and his companion eye contact, they didn't jump upwards anymore! They just remained at their normal standing position and kept giving me affection by licking my hands. The saddest part was when Hagen wanted to reach out his paws to me so badly, but he couldn't, as the gap of the gate was too small. He kept trying to reach for my hand.. Since he had difficulty reaching for me, I tried to reach for his paw instead. I have a few bruises from squeezing my hands across the gate, but it's all worth it. It doesn't even hurt at all, because Hagen and his companion was licking my hands all over, non-stop. They seem to have special healing powers :) Hagen desperately wanted affection from me. When I had one hand stroking his fur and the other one stroking his companion, he would walk in between my hands and lick one of my hands, and wanting me to stroke him with another! :D
Here comes the most unbelievable part. You just have to believe this. As I was stroking his back and scratching his chin, I was talking to him about some stuff (that I will not reveal because non-compassionate people/non-animal lover/non-dog lover will not comprehend the conversation at all), and what shocked me was that he actually pressed his ears and body against the gate so hard that his fur was all sticking out from the gate. He remained in a sitting position, with his ears just in front of my mouth, which i believe is to hear me speak, and to let me sayang him while talking to him. He stayed like that until I had to leave, and that was when he turned his body and faced me. As I walked away, I whispered something to him and he wagged his tail. I guess that was an answer/reply I got from him. Cried when Dad drove away, cried because my boy has grown up to be such a handsome boy, cried because I missed him so much, cried because I'm kinda relieved yet worried at the same time. Cried because I still love him so much and want him back so badly. I know it's impossible, I know that I can only look at him from afar..
Separating a mother from her son. That's the worse feeling ever.
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| Never A Priority, Always A Backup |
[20 Nov 2011|02:30am] |
After a thousand years of not blogging, i'm finally back. Reason being I have many things to vent out, but considering that this is a public blog, and god knows if any of my relatives are reading this (and if i rant about anything), they'd probably go tell others and judge me for my words/the language i'm using. Seriously? Can't people just give me the private space and respect that I need? It's MY blog yet i find it hard to voice out what i really wish to get off my chest, without offending anyone/thinking of how people view me. I've had many people judging me for being someone that I'm totally not, just because of what i wrote. I've got relatives that go scrambling to their parents telling them what i've written on my blog and they'd just spread to other relatives. Even those that do not use the Internet. Are my blog posts that interesting, or just that some of my relatives are just too free to be gossiping about my daily happenings. I used to think social media was a good platform for me to express my feelings, after the privacy of my hand-written diary was largely invaded by annoying assholes. Worst of all, my very first hand-written diary, the one where I had written most of my secrets that I've been bottling inside me, my photos, my letters to my best friend, was stolen. How ridiculous can that get?
It was then, did i stumble upon blogs. From blogspot, I moved on to Livejournal (and I'm still with Livejournal). I realised i used to be blogging everyday, or almost everyday, when i was much younger. Blogging about what time i woke up, what i had for breakfast, what homework i had, and all the other nonsensical stuff. As i grew older, my blog posts became significantly shorter. Words could no longer describe how my day was, how i felt, what i was going through. Or maybe my linguistic skills just isn't good enough, hmm.. I felt that as each day passed, my perspective of how the next day was going to be got pessimistic. "I'm not gonna make it through tmrw!", "What? I don't think i can last till the end of the day!", "When is this going to end, seriously?", "I can't take it anymore!!!". From the day nightmare started, I've never looked forward to tomorrow. I was afraid that tomorrow would be worse, maybe much worse, than what today had been. What made things worse was that when bad things really happen to you, you can never seem to find any of the so-called "bffs/cliques" when you really need them. How many would actually stop to think about how you really feel? How many would actually stop whatever they're doing, rush down and give you a hug when you really need one? How many would actually give you a pat on the back and say, "Whatever happens, i'm always here for you!" It's just heartbreaking to experience such a thing, especially when you're all alone and crying your lungs out, yet there is no one there for you.
What triggered me to write this post was the recent happenings that made me feel so insecure and that I can't be myself with everyone judging me. And that, someone who is supposedly close to me is suspecting me of whatever I do. It really hurts to be treated in such a way, even though I didn't do anything. It just hurts. Knowing that he/she simply doesn't trust you at all. Really, it hurts so badly. But what can I do? If he/she chooses not to place trust in me, there's nothing I can do, and I will NOT go all out to show that I am not lying or whatsoever. Why bother when the person's perspective of you is already tainted? Right, and with that, i shall stop talking about this because it's making me feel extremely upset at 230am. I just wanna be happy, and off i show to relive my SWC moments. Goodbye, suckers.
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| SHINee World Concert, 10 Sept 2011 |
[11 Sep 2011|08:36pm] |
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Yes, you guys saw it! I'll be blogging about SHINee World Concert, the first concert in Singapore for the boys! The concert was just so fantastic, I think any description would just lower the level of fantastic-ness of the concert! Anyway I have something to boast about...
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* I WAS AT THE FIRST ROW OF THE MOSH PIT IN PEN B!!!!!
 Envious?! Come on, I know thousands of girls out there would be dying to be in my place! I was just in front of the main stage! There's another thing I wanna let you guys know! I had eye contact with Key and Jonghyun many times! >:D But only ONCE with Onew.. :( Believe it or not, there was this moment where Key was singing his part and I was looking at him. Suddenly he looked at me and already finished his part but we were still looking at each other. My heart pumped so loud and I was so shy but the both of us looked away after looking at each other for about 5 seconds! Kyahhhhh, I swear I almost died during that moment! It was so precious <3 Key, I love you! Oh did I mention that Key waved at me too? Key was so awesome yesterday that I still have images of him in my mind as I type now!! Can't stop blushing whenever i think about that special Key moment :*) Enough of my fan moments, shall let you in with a few pictures I have here. Didn't manage to capture any pictures of the boys on stage with my DSLR cause the security was annoyingly shining torchlight at fans who tried to snap pictures. One even got pulled out from the pen cause she was given too many warnings yet she didn't heed them. Note: ALL pictures of the BOYS posted on my LJ is NOT taken by me, but THE REST ARE. SHINee World In Singapore, main stage! Where the boys where suspended in the air during performances like Lucifer! 
SHINee World wrist tag for the queue in the mosh pit Alright! Enough of torturing you guys without the photos of the most important part of SWC :D WELCOMING THE BOYS! Here's SHINee's Almighty Key! <3 I shall reiterate that these pictures are not taken by me!   OMG Key why are you so cute! Love this performance of Key and Taeminnie, where TM dressed as a sexy blonde ;)  Sexy Almighty Key!  So cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee!  Happy Key's Day! :D  *MELTS*  Happy birthday in advance, Key <3  Charming :*)  If only the flower was for me~ Next, Leader Onew a.k.a Dubu! <3  I. LOVEEEEEEE. YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU! *faints*  Goodness. My prince charming <3  KYAHHHH i want a guardian angel like Dubu <3  Why are you so cute, Dubu!!  Hahaha! The part where he was supposed to talk and the translator started speaking before he could!   Aww messy hair, but still so charming <3  Hehe!! Next up, Bling Bling Jonghyun!  I swear I could die when I saw him in this pose!  Hehehe water fight :p  His solo was simply indescribable ;) Next, Flaming Charisma Minho!  Sexy hip thrust, i swear i almost died on the spot.  Look at his 6 pacs! Lastly, SHINee's Maknae, a.k.a Handy Boy/FlashDance HeeChul JR!  The only picture I have of him. Have to say his dance skills are amazing! Anyway, that's all folks! ;) OH YES, before i forget.. Happy 21st Birthday, Key! ♥
Go Kibum! Go Kibum! Go Kibum! Go Kibum!
*Crazy Key's Dance on stage* :*)
Love you, Key!!! ♥
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Next up, post on my trip to the Singapore Zoological Gardens.
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| Cer, Koon and Imp's 18th! |
[13 Jul 2011|10:21pm] |
Hey guys, i promised I'd be back to inject some life in here. So here i am!  Happy 18th to the both of you! <3 One by one, everyone of us is turning 18 soon! Come on, the last two (Xian and Val).. Hurry up so we can hit the club all together! Haha, just kidding. Doubt clubbing is fun. But i'll check it out one day! I guess? Anyway, back to the celebration.  Her pose, as usual... Haha!  Birthday Boy together with Xian and Imp.  Me, Adi and Birthday Girl <3  Feli & I :D  Me! :> Teehee! After dinner, while waiting for the cake to be served... *PICTURE-TIME!* Trying for a shot with the big mirror next to me :D  FAILURE SHOT :<  <3 Moving on.. Haha sorry for ending their birthday celebration so abruptly! Anyway, soon it was Imp's birthday! :D Surprised her after our HP7 Part II movie! She found out about our card though ): But it's okay she was still surprised about the cake! :D  Happy 18th birthday, babe! <3  Imp, Cer and me! :D  Do i look studious?! Haha!  Koon said this is my pretty shot, awww~ (But my face is 90% covered. #@?!^&*!!)  Doe-Ray-Mi-Fa :D  EVERYBARDDDDYYYYYY EXCEPT ME! >:( Cause i was the photographer. Photoshop me in!!! GRR. Initially it was just a shot for the guys then everyone jumped in, assholes! But i still love you guys. BITCH! ): Kay i'm angry, so... BYE! >:(
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| Life Of A Singapore Student. What's New? |
[04 Jul 2011|11:44pm] |
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I know I should be blogging more often, but school's making my life extremely mundane! Surprising to hear that right? But indeed.. Have nothing much to update about, but I promise I'll be back real soon to sweep off the dust here! Meanwhile... Someone has been on my mind every day, hour, minute and second. Who's that special one? ;)
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MALE!!!!!!!!!! *DRAMA-MAMA GASP*
IT'S....................................?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
YESSSSSSSS!!! IT'S HAGEN!!!!!! Heeheehee!! Bet some of you were being tricked! Look at my boy now! He has grown up to be such a fine, young man! :') JIEJIE STILL LOVES AND MISSES YOU VERY MUCH!! <3 <3 <3 And still think of you every day and night, hour, minute, second, whether I'm in school or at home. Nothing can express how much I love you, and please continue to grow, stay as handsome and BE A GOOD BOY! *HUGS AND KISSES*
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| Common Test, GG |
[26 Jun 2011|12:54am] |
So, what's up guys? This phrase, is something that I never ever get it. Neither do i know how to answer it. Like what Nat Ho posted on his Twitter, "What's up? Er... I don't know. The sky? The moon? Or the sun? Depending on the time." So... How do you guys answer this question when your friends tell you this? Usually, I don't know how to reply it and I'll just brush it off with, "Nothing! :)" Well.. Maybe i should start learning how to respond to this! Hmm.. To show you guys what's up recently.. (lagged for 3 weeks)  Haha! No it isn't me! This is ME.  Hehehehe, like my dress? :D I LOVE IT! THANKS VGY! <3 Special thanks and love to the owner, Tricia, who made it possible for me to get the dress so quickly! :D Love VGY and its efficiency! And the lovely dress! :D Anyway, back to the highlight of my cousin's wedding...  My two nieces and the little boy from my cousin's other side of the family! The three of them look sooo cute together! ;) They definitely snatched the limelight of the wedding! You may not believe it, but they were more popular than the bride and groom!  With the younger sister :) And guess who i met at the wedding!  Yes, our fave Sec 3 and 4 PE teacher, Mr Lai! He happens to know the groom, and was sitting at the table behind me! Okay, I'm lazy and extremely tired, so that's all folks! :) |
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| Black Face, Literally. |
[23 May 2011|11:07pm] |
 Guess who got mad! Okay that was quite long ago, but this photo just describes how i feel now. Been stuck with my report since e-learning week (last week)! Better finish it up now, though dateline is Wed. Finish now and i don't have to worry :D I hope i end lessons early tmrw!
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| It's Been A Long While :) |
[17 May 2011|01:38am] |
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Hey folks! Wazzup! ;) It's been quite a while since i updated. A proper one, hehe ^^ So.. It's been 4 official weeks into poly, currently embarking on my 5th today. Would have to say that all has been good :) I think i'm starting to understand the meaning of " Sometimes God doesn't give you what you want. Not because you don't deserve it, but because you deserve better. " Perhaps it was pure fate that I was being placed here, instead of somewhere else. Who knows? But I'm glad i was placed here. My class is so bonded that we still go for lunch as a class :*) Just that we can't find tables that can accommodate all 21 of us, so we have to sit separately. Lessons have been pretty interesting, except where there are times where it gets a tad boring, and we all let our minds wander off somewhere.. ;) Ain't that bad so we're still good kids :D Some pictures from school :)
 Part of MB1101 :)  And soon, it was my 18th :) My face is horrible!  From my lovely classmates from MB1101.. Thank you guys, especially Madeline and her mum! <3  With the most expensive b'day cake I got for myself, presenting Lychee Martini Cake! Very well-liked by my friends :)  With my girls <3 Hope to meet all of them soon :)  With the boys :) Gary has that face whenever he takes pictures.. (Or is it just with me? LOL.) Grabbed all these from Hwee cam. Jiayu didn't do justice to my DSLR on that night ): My DSLR only had 5 photos of me out of the 80 or 100 odd photos he snapped.. How could he!! It was my birthday!! ): My cam died before he could snap a decent picture of me and my cake too, sighhhhh.. Alright, the only picture that I looked decent was probably this one and only picture! Here we go... Scroll down.. No, not yet ;) Hehehe okay I'm irritating yo already, I know! ^^ Tadah!!! :D Okay don't throw rotten eggs and veggies at me! :p  Not bad right!! Jiayu commented that we looked like angels ^^ Except for the lack of halos above our heads :D The lighting was great, and it complimented the colour of our clothes! Hahaha Jiayu, you copied me right? :p Oh well.. The night ended off pretty well, just that many had to rush home as it was getting late. Nonetheless, every one of us had our fair share of fun, I suppose? :) It was great, being able to meet so many of my friends during the BBQ. It has been so long since we last met up as a big group, ever since we've graduated from AMKSS in the year 2009. I hope that such a day comes again soon, so we can all have fun together and snuggle ourselves in the joyful company of each and everyone <3
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| The Black Star Tour <3 |
[11 May 2011|03:50pm] |
  Black Star Tour merchandise!  The lovely cousins who got me my ticket to the Black Star Tour <3  From the place we entered, right at the back.  From where we are seated. It isn't very far actually! The iPhone camera always shrinks things by a lot.  Picture time! Since Avril isn't out, hahaha.   LOL, my cousin is cute/act cute!  A must-do pose when you're at a concert @ Singapore Indoor Stadium!  Fishball pose! 
The man who took this for us gave the -_- face. Whatever.  Awww mei nu!  My very ow fishball!  Wasn't exactly bright cause lightsticks weren't free this time round (was free during The Best Damn Thing). Cost $10!  After the concert, in the Black Star Tour shirt!  Took turns to wear it cause initially only Michael got it.  Hehehehe!! ^^  Sorry for showing my butt. We got our own shirts after that! I got the last one on the stack and Edwin got the last one on the display board. Lucky us! <3 Hope to attend her next concert again! |
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| Love From Australia ♥ |
[06 May 2011|08:17pm] |
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♥ Kwek Kwek! I'm so touched with all the content in the card! :*) Can't wait for your arrival! :D *BEAR HUG*
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